2009...and a little cliche

So clearly, I'm not great at this whole blogging thing.  In fact, no one really cares that I'm not good at this blogging thing but me.  ahh life.

So I'm sitting here watching "Confessions of a Teen Idol" which I think may be my new favorite show.  It's actually a little ridiculous to say i have a favorite show because I love tv more than anything but at any rate, it's what i'm loving right now.  It's making me take a look at who I am.  Some of these guys are grounded and accepting of who they are and some are really sad.  About half of the sad ones are set in their ways and the other half are ready to make a change.  I'm putting myself in that other half.  

I'm making a change.

I hate resolutions; I think they are so cliche.

So this isn't a list of resolutions.  It's just a list.  And it's subject to change.

read more - easy to say, and I say it every year but I really want to read more

be nicer - i'm mean.  I know it and i'm fine with it and i always thought it was okay to be a bitch as long as you admitted you were...but now I'm rethinking that.  i'm going to try to be a bit nicer...it's hard because i really don't like anyone.  everyone bothers me but i'm going to try

make friends - so the reason for the above is so i can actually make a few friends.  i can actually say i have two friends.  my boyfriend.  and my friend back home.  that's seriously it. no joke.  if i died tomorrow no one would come to my funeral that wasn't a part of my family except for those two...okay, maybe people would come but they would come because they felt like they HAD to come not because they WANTED to come.

keep it clean - I'm really anal about cleaning but if i kept things picked up on a weekly basis, i wouldn't have to be so crazy about "cleaning days"

exercise - yes, i need to work on my health.  i've got a lot of health issues but none of which keep me from exercising.  my laziness keeps me from exercising.  i'm not about losing weight, just being healthy for me.  because i'm not well all the time...so I need to take some extra care with my health

dress better for work - yah, i don't dress for the job i want so i'm changing that.  i'm not happy in my current job so maybe dressing a bit better will change that

find joy in my job or move on - i either need to find something with my current situation that i enjoy or move on.  right now i can list many things i dont like and very few that i like.  hopefully dressing better and being nicer will change my situation but maybe not.  i'm giving myself until march, then moving on.  

go out and do more things - it's saturday night and i'm watching "confessions of a teen idol"...this is normal for me.  since i dont' have friends, i dont have much to do on the weekends except watch tv, clean my house and hang out with my dog.  

that's it for now.  subject to change.